tryuly it is everyday you walk in the war zone

yes ladies and gents i really do want to know what happened to the pursuit? i just don't understand why we as people are so selfish and we do everything to gain "points" as though life is a game ... what happened to chivalry? since when is it ok for some one to invade someone else's space , and be so bold as to reallly just treat someoneas though they have no self worth. i'm just tired of boys who call themselves men who don't know how to be men and therefor can not be a gentlemen, and these girls who call themselves women but  carry themselves as though they are trash and can't and don't carry themselves as a lady should ... yesterday i was with a friend of mine who just found out that i have never dated a black boy, and then i was able to show her a prie example as to why.... most black men do not know how to pursue ... i know that is a blanket statement but it is very true ... however  at the same time most men don't how to pursue ...  most men involve themselves in what we will call the true animal instinct ... when they see something they want the are extremely bold in there actions, however subtle or obnoxious, to get the cross to you and everyone around that is there focus .... i guess what i'm trying to get at here is we have lost so much of ourselves because of our selfish motives and our lack of self control ... we have lost chivalry, maybe not completely but it is walking a thin line between life and death ... i feel as though i as a woman deserve that; pursiut, self-control, romance not just some "hey baby you look fly, so when you gonna let me get in those jeans?" guys you deserve more than just some girl who willing to "give it up" you deserve a bride... girls you deserve to be treated with the utmost honor, respect and be treated like a lady,  you deserve some one who every time they looks at you says " she is worth dying for"... i want to be worth dying for
i deserve to be worth dying for..... i deserve to be pursed .... i deserve self-control and self-restraint

well.... where do i even begin, things in my life that peple have spoken when i was younger are now begining to affect me and the way i live my life the way that  pray the way that i fellowship the way that i do anything really.i've forund my self more and more in these last few weeks thinking completely differently then i have ever before in life. is this the lord changing my heart or is this more of me just going on my instcinct? i'm confused about so much in my life. Sunday after church we found ourselves smack in the middle of a Mardi Gras parade, my heart began to break, but at the same time it hardend toward all of theses people who look just like me by the color of there skin but by the content of there character. i'm tired of wanting something so much more for people than they want for themselves. if we really wnated more out of life would  we continue to live in this cycle of ignorance. i believe that it is time that we as the black community or just the community of minorities stop feeling sorry for ourselves and make a change. my friends the "white man" does not have you down you are keeping yourself down. i cryed that day because i want so much more than to walk out in a stereotypical role of being " black". WHY CAN"T WE JUST BE PEOPLE? when it comes down to it that is what we are. "the man" doesn't have me down because he can't i am the only one with the power to oppress me. people lets get out of this destructive lifestyle, of unrealistic thinking and unrealistic living stop wearing these rediculously expensive clothes, and driving theses flashy cars and living in setion eight housing. life isn't about that it's about so much more, but you never see it if you don't look past where you're at right now.